Grown Tired- Hard Earned Rest
I get this way a lot. Most of the time it is because I go full speed in all things, and before the day is up, I'm catching my emergency supply of fumes that may or may not get me to the end.
Last year, in February, I came home from a joy-filled Disciple Now weekend at church. I was the girls leader for 11th and 12th ages and I loved every minute of it. But when I got home and sat down in a silent room, my heart started to sing these words. I grabbed my guitar, touched the familiar strings and out came a song.
It's simple, it's there, and I find myself singing it often.
The feeling of being tired did not come from lazy bones or from an unfullfilled day. It came as the result of pouring my heart, time, and energy out on those girls. And when I sing this song, it is an expression of joy in the rest that my body needs to go out and do it all over again.
It is an example of a job well done and a cry for the need to be filled again before I go on. It's a moment of vulnerability to drop everything I am working on, shut down my brain, and trust that the Lord has everything in His hands, including my restoration.
"In peace I will both lie down and sleep for You alone, Oh Lord, make me dwell in safety."
May we all find rest after hard working days and be filled by the rest that gives us renewal for the times to come.